If you were to ask my mom, I was an intense and uptight kid. I worried about things kids shouldn't worry about and only a few times can I really and truly remember letting go and letting loose.
It's not that different now that I'm an adult. I'm still afraid of what most people consider to be fun things like roller coasters, I think too much, and fear holds me back greatly from having a voice and taking risks. My daughter has taught me about innocence, imagination, and just being. And these days, as my relationship with Christ stengthens, I feel myself changing.
This song says it all for me.
Have you or has someone you've known sang a song at church or at a concert and had their hands raised high, eyes closed, no-holds-barred, praising the Lord? They don't care where they are or who is watching, it's just about Him. I'm that way in my head and heart, but I may never be that person.
When I hear this song, I can see myself, hands raised high over my head, going down the fastest and biggest roller coaster, no fear, knowing that Christ is there with me, as He always has been, and He is smiling because He knows that I have let go.
I want my daughter to be the same way, in all that she does, and I also want that braveness to help in my fear of sharing my testimony and spreading the Word.
Here are the the lyrics and a video.
I sought The Lord, and he answered me, and delivered me from all my fears. Because I continue to look to him, I’m radiant... Psalms 34:5